Ben and his Playhouse in which Harmony Lives

lighterfluid543 @ 2008-07-21T00:36:00

2008-07-21T04:38:40Z

Being financially unstable is a bitch. It really is.

lighterfluid543 @ 2008-07-18T23:56:00

2008-07-19T03:59:21Z

I really don't have much to say here. I'm working. I'm living. Etcetera.

lighterfluid543 @ 2008-07-11T16:01:00

2008-07-11T20:05:00Z

I really want school to start again. Summer is just...generally boring. I've been doing stuff and such, but it just doesn't seem to have a point. I'd RATHER be learning something, and I'd especially rather be with the Acting Ensemble. Rather be playing my instrument with people. And just being with people in general.

Humans are a sad race, but I just can't get enough of them.

lighterfluid543 @ 2008-06-30T23:30:00

2008-07-01T03:34:04Z

Benjamin is somebody who doesn't know if he wants to be nice and get ran over, or be an ass and get somewhere.
Benjamin is scared of his own shadow.
Benjamin is having trouble being reassured lately.
Benjamin is not fond of his family.
Benjamin is worried, immensely.
Benjamin might not go to college...not by his choice.

lighterfluid543 @ 2008-06-28T23:12:00

2008-06-29T03:15:04Z

All I am is a confused boy who doesn't know what he wants to do with his life.

Fuck.

lighterfluid543 @ 2008-06-11T23:06:00

2008-06-12T03:08:24Z

I need to collect my thoughts. Lots and lots of thoughts.

lighterfluid543 @ 2008-06-01T20:55:00

2008-06-02T01:04:50Z

Maybe I'll start using this thing again..I mean, I used it in middle school when I was all sad and the like. Those feelings are starting to haunt my brain all over again. It's kind of terrifying. Recently, I was more sad than I ever was in middle school...maybe not...but I was pretty low. Things don't seem to be going as swimmingly as one would hope for them to. I guess I'm bringing it upon myself. I dunno. Life just really is kind of sad. I want to go to NYC. But, on my own... College is quite a while away though.

lighterfluid543 @ 2008-05-15T19:21:00

2008-05-15T23:22:56Z

I'm a miserable human being with miserable intentions.

lighterfluid543 @ 2008-01-16T19:40:00

2008-01-17T00:39:20Z

Livejournal has apparently died.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-12-21T20:19:00

2007-12-22T01:20:09Z

It's been quite some time since I've used this thing. I may just delete it, I dunno. Whatevuh. Uuum...I got the part of Roger in the school musical. Good?

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-09-30T17:45:00

2007-09-30T21:45:36Z

Okay, good. The season has been salvaged. The first competition...shouldn't even count. I'm going to forget about it. WE CAN NOW SAY THAT WE'VE GONE FROM A 60.25 TO AN 89.5. WE TOTALLY ROCK (minus last week)

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-09-20T19:43:00

2007-09-20T23:43:12Z

It's all gone. After a year and three months. All of my hair is gone.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-09-07T16:28:00

2007-09-07T20:28:58Z

School.
Art.
School.
Music.
School.
Folk.
School.
Stuff.

....school.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-08-26T02:05:00

2007-08-26T06:15:25Z

It's almost back to school. How uncool is that? It's really something to ANTI-envy. But, I'm not the only one to be anti-envied. Lot's of people are. Way too many.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-08-20T22:41:00

2007-08-21T02:42:12Z

Am I a moron?

Yes I am.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-08-14T10:12:00

2007-08-14T14:14:51Z

My brother is currently trying to make me angry, and sounding like the real fucking moron he is doing so. He's not really making me mad, but it's kindof funny to hear him shouting like a nimrod. There are so many things I could say to him right now that would make him angry enough to try to hurt me, because being the moron he is, he's too stupid to do anything else, but try to hurt me, which I guess he THINKS makes me scared of him. He's choked me before, and he hits me. And such. He's quite honestly probably in the top 5 people I respect the least. Along with my dad. Which is kindof sad really....

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-08-01T18:37:00

2007-08-01T22:39:44Z

LightMyCandle170: its really pretty, its got a salt water taffy store right by there
WifeAnd18Kids: Sounds like a time. (besides the taffy, ha)
WifeAnd18Kids: No taffy for Benny.
LightMyCandle170: well, technically, its a kite store
WifeAnd18Kids: Hahah.
WifeAnd18Kids: A kite/taffy store.
LightMyCandle170: but it sells salt water taffy
WifeAnd18Kids: Cuz I mean, they go hand in hand.
LightMyCandle170: of course
WifeAnd18Kids: Just like mayonaisse and go carts.
LightMyCandle170: or ipods and hotel soap
WifeAnd18Kids: Or ketchup and gameboys.
WifeAnd18Kids: Haha, that list could go on forever.
WifeAnd18Kids: Or Iodized Salt and Sketchers.
WifeAnd18Kids: ANYWAY, before I get sucked into that.
LightMyCandle170: lol
LightMyCandle170: yeah, we could go on for a while
WifeAnd18Kids: Peanut butter and car stereos.
WifeAnd18Kids: Ice cream and playhouses.
WifeAnd18Kids: Haha, these could all be the names of those black and white depressing indie movies.
WifeAnd18Kids: Where it's like "And his tear lit the world of her gossip bubble only to be popped by the uncanny ability to read"
LightMyCandle170: LOL
LightMyCandle170: XD
WifeAnd18Kids: *tear streams down face*
WifeAnd18Kids: And that's how Mayonaisse and Go Carts ends.
WifeAnd18Kids: Ha.
LightMyCandle170: wow
LightMyCandle170: you are so weird, dude
WifeAnd18Kids: Hah, thanks.
WifeAnd18Kids: I'm telling you, we should make that movie.
WifeAnd18Kids: Mayonaisse and Go Carts
LightMyCandle170: what about P-Dizzle?!
WifeAnd18Kids: Mayonaisse and Go Carts II : This time it's worthy of 1000 Tears.
WifeAnd18Kids: Mayonaisse and Go Carts III : The Tears of 250 Cups of Sadness.
WifeAnd18Kids: Mayonaisse and Go Carts IV: How many tears does it take to dissolve to the middle of a tootsie pop?
WifeAnd18Kids: Mayonaisse and Go Carts V : A Single Tear Lit Mars Wind and Jupiter to the Earth Sky.
WifeAnd18Kids: Hhaha, okay Rachel, I need to stop.
LightMyCandle170: lol
LightMyCandle170: omg
LightMyCandle170: you do
WifeAnd18Kids: Hahahahaa.
LightMyCandle170: stop it
WifeAnd18Kids: Haha.
WifeAnd18Kids: I'm thinking of putting this conversation in my profile.
WifeAnd18Kids: Cuz I mean, Mayonaisse and Go Carts NEEDS NEEDS NEEDS to be made.
WifeAnd18Kids: Okay.
WifeAnd18Kids: I'm done.
WifeAnd18Kids: No worries.
LightMyCandle170: promise?
LightMyCandle170: lol
WifeAnd18Kids: I think so...
WifeAnd18Kids: ....
LightMyCandle170: COME ON BEN
LightMyCandle170: you need to quit!
WifeAnd18Kids: ..........Mayonaisse and Go Carts VI : .......Tears of the Sun streaming down the Moons Face...
WifeAnd18Kids: .....

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-07-31T14:46:00

2007-07-31T18:52:32Z

Mm....so, I'm confused. Sunday I played my guitar for 10 hours. Yesterday for 4, today for 1 (I'll prolly do some more later). It's just really confusing.
Not really in a good mood right now. I think I'm allergic to cats. Stinkin cats.

I've been writing a lot lately. Fun.

Whatever.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-07-30T00:16:00

2007-07-30T04:17:11Z

Just played guitar for 10 hours straight. Hope to make that a daily thing.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-07-28T12:52:00

2007-07-28T17:01:34Z

Last night I went into my room and wrote three poems, no, four poems. One about Love. One about the voices in my head. One about the colors I see. And one about aliens who come to Earth and throw a block party. The last one was the weirdest. Because it began as an ode to the pen, and became then random babble, and ended as an alien block party kindof thing...
Writing is fun. Lot's of it. Can't really write stories or plays very well, but I do indeed enjoy writing poems or short bits or what my mind sees.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-07-22T14:00:00

2007-07-22T18:01:07Z

Read Deathly Hallows and am still shaking and still kindof numb.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-07-19T22:19:00

2007-07-20T02:21:44Z

I got an acoustic guitar. Already have a new song written on it. Two really. You know, guitar is easily the most important inanimate thing in my life. More so than...well, anything else. It just means so much to me...I think it's been almost a year now, and I've made pretty good progress I guess. I can't remember a day that I haven't played for at LEAST 20 minutes...so, that's good.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-07-14T12:57:00

2007-07-14T17:01:47Z

Ok, so, we got three movies. Miracle, The Descent, and Hustle and Flow. Miracle I'd seen before, and you know, it's a good movie. The Descent scared the shit out of me. I had to reach from the recliner to turn on the light to make sure a big eared fucker wasn't gonna get into a boxing match with me. And then, last night I watched Hustle and Flow, and all I can say is Wow. That was a good movie. Definitely in my top 10. It was just..reallly good.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-07-11T18:50:00

2007-07-11T22:51:49Z

If any hasn't known, I've been driving for the past three days. Easiest thing I've done in a long time.

lighterfluid543 @ 2007-07-07T20:57:00

2007-07-08T01:01:21Z

Yo friends. It's obvious that I'm not the only one with problems, and don't peg me as ever thinking this. My family is screwed up, but hey, not my fault, and I'm not gonna try to change it. Whatever. Let it be. But I wish I could be more open with you guys. And I wish you could be more open with me. I'm guess there aren't that many people who read this. Even if it's there. But still. It's my offer. I don't know if I can help, but still. And if you aren't open with me, it's just my fault anyway. I mean, when I try to help, I guess I'm a bit odd about it. All I can do is tell you about my crap experiences, and I don't think that helps. Sorry then, if I can't help.